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I feel like I took another lucid dream journey last night, but I don’t recall the details of it. I believe I briefly woke while it was still dark. Then I went back to sleep. I am not one to wake up and write dreams down at like 4 in the morning. If the sun ain’t up, I am not risking losing sleep by waking myself enough to coherently record a dream. Not remembering the details is kind of annoying though.

I do, however, remember one interesting dream event. I found myself needing to use the bathroom in a dream and realizing I had to wake up to do so. I “woke up” and almost immediately thought I should make sure I am really awake. I looked at my arm as I lifted it. It was transparent. After being sure I was still sleeping I woke up for real. I quickly made my way to the bathroom while half asleep. When I sat on my bed again afterwards it dawned on me that my bed was in another corner of my bedroom in the false awakening. It seemed like I got out of my bed from that corner of the room after I woke up for real and went to the bathroom. I guess I was still in very much an in-between state of consciousness when my physical body got out of bed.

Edit: I randomly remembered details of the dream like 12 hours after waking up.

Dream Travels

I have noticed a pattern when I try to fly to a particular place in a lucid dream; I typically end up not getting to where I request to go.  For example, if I were to say “I want to go to Myrtle Beach”, chances are my dream self would instinctively set off in flight.  However, I would be aware that my lucidity tends to be short before actually waking up.  I would get impatient with how long it was taking me to get there and just have to enjoy the feeling of flight because I realized I would probably wake up before getting to that specific destination.  Two recent dreams have given me a hint at personal dream travel for myself;  I will actually end up somewhere if I ask my spirit tribe or guardian angel to take me on a journey.   Both experiences were fairly short as usual, but I actually did end up at a destination when I let go of the reigns to were that destination would be.  Interestingly enough, I did not fully wake up when I was jerked back from the second dream.  I was able to send myself back to that place pretty much right away even if again the visit was very brief.  It would be nice if I always was able to do that when I felt like it.

Something else I have noticed, which seems especially true after the last dream journey, is that my heart rate was elevated when I woke up.  It was almost as if I was having a panic attack minus the actual panic.  This adrenaline pumping might contribute to my short lucid dreams.  I do not believe I get too excited in the dream state.  I have an enthusiasm, sure.  I don’t feel I get to the level of overwhelming excitement though.  This tells me that whenever I become lucid I will have to ask my spirit tribe to help keep my heart rate at a healthy relaxed pace.

Thoughts of Dreamtime


This post will cover the different types of dreams.   Some dreams will combine multiple types.  It may go beyond the types of dreams and delve a bit into dream theory.  This is all from my point of view, so don’t be surprised to discover opposing information.  Here goes.

Dream types

  1.  What I call a “tumbler dream”:  This is a dream in which your brain picks a bunch of random stuff from your memory (people you knew, places you have seen on television, monsters you have read about, etc.) and shakes them up together in a subconscious tumbler before tossing the contents out onto your dreamscape.  This is the “typical dream”.  These dreams will often enough be assembled out of references from your day, but can be composed on concepts and characters you have not thought of in years.  They can be as standard as fornicating with a celebrity or as weird as flying through space while riding on the back of a giant pink elephant.
  2. Symbolic dreams:  These are dreams that on the surface probably seem like a tumbler dream.  However, you wake up with a feeling that the dream was important.  You realize there was a relevant symbolic message for you in the dream after you have taken some time to consider its details.  For example, you might realize that a dream about bells that don’t ring is telling you that you have figuratively lost your voice.
  3. Visitation dreams:  These are dreams in which loved ones who have crossed over visit us in the dreamscape.  We may or may not be aware that we are dreaming in these.  There may not always be a way to know that a loved one really visited you in a dream, but I suspect there is a strong feeling that what you experienced was real instead of your subconscious recreating the deceased as a dream character.   You might receive confirmation in the form of a validated message.  Such a message could be “My locket is in the ballerina box in the basement.”  Then you would find the locket where you were told it would be.
  4. Desire dreams and fear dreams:  If you think every day about how you wish you could find Mr. Right, your subconscious  might simulate that experience for you in dreamtime.  If you are constantly worrying about not being able to pay your bills, you might have a dream about a foreclosure on your home.
  5. The semi-lucid dream- This is a dream in which you know to at least some extent that you are dreaming.  It could be carrying on like a regular tumbler dream but then without even thinking about it, your dream self says “This sure is an odd dream.”  You don’t really take advantage of the situation or even become particularly conscious.  Rather, you just have a little nudge that you are asleep.  I have found that I am often semi-lucid.  I will be going about a dream as usual then my dream self will tell the person I am talking to “I’m going to wake up soon.” If the dream is playing out like an astral adventure, then something similar but different might be said.  I believe it was this morning I had a dream in which I told a spirit I met in a house on the astral that I was still alive.  I said it like I instinctively knew I was asleep and projecting.  Then I realized that the spirit was of a cocaine addict and quickly corrected myself by saying that I was just kidding because I did not want the spirit to try to attach itself and experience a high through me.  I realize that this sounds like a sort of lucid dream/astral projection.  However, I was not participating with a wakeful consciousness.  I had a type of background awareness.  The background awareness of the dream is the stamp of the semi-lucid dream.  I can say in my experience that dream control and dream manifestation is easier in this type of dream.  Even though I am not lucidly thinking, my subconscious background awareness knows that dreaming means I can do all kinds of things.  The lack of full lucidity prevents me from second-guessing my in-dream abilities.
  6. The lucid dream:  You are totally aware you are dreaming.  This experience is often the result of a trigger in your dream drawing in conscious awareness.  Perhaps you are dreaming about your mom making breakfast for you.  You are in the kitchen of your childhood home.  Suddenly you think “What am I doing here?  I live in another state now.  I haven’t visited home in a year…I am dreaming!”  I’m not sure why spontaneous realizations such as that occur sometimes when typically we don’t think twice about the odd situations in our dreams.   People popularly try to take control in these dreams to have awesome experiences they have in mind.  Some examples are flying, shape shifting, time traveling, exploring space, and meeting beautiful lovers.  Something to note is that being lucid in a dream does not guarantee control over the dream.  Some who find themselves in lucid nightmares may become completely terrified even though they are aware they are in a dream.  This is because the experience feels more real while they are lucid.  If they are unable to take control, the experience of fear can be amplified.  Also on the topic of lucid dreams, some people choose to lucidly experience a dream without trying to control it.  I have a fondness for consciously exploring the dreamscape as it is.  One can also attempt to make contact with Spirit while lucid in a dream.  It is believed that such contact can be easier in the dream state.  Some people may even try to contact extraterrestrials from a lucid dream believing that their vibration will then be noticed.  I don’t try contacting E.T.s.  That is out of my comfort zone.
  7. Astral Projection/Astral Travel Dreams-  It is an ages old belief that one’s spirit (or astral body) goes exploring while we are asleep.  These explorations have been thought of as what makes up our dreams.  Although I can’t say that I strongly believe this is true for all dreams, I do feel there is at least some truth to this.  This is not to say I necessarily believe a spirit leaves their physical bodies for these dreams.  I believe that is possible.  However, I also believe in the possibility of an astral portal within the mind.  You will probably be able to grasp that idea if you have ever heard of worlds within worlds.  Perhaps we can experience astral travel within ourselves.  A way to differentiate an astral travel dream from a “standard” dream in which one travels is that an astral travel dream seems to possibly take you beyond your own personal dreamscape into a sort of collective realm where others might be able to travel.  For example, you might be accustomed to dreaming about being a student in school.  An astral travel dream would stand out because perhaps you asked your spirit guide to take you a place of learning in the spiritual realm.  You are then rapidly pulled to a school with an energy to it like you have never experienced.  It feels like there are really spiritual beings collectively gathered in that space.  Another type of possible astral projection dream is projecting to an alternate reality.
  8. False awakenings/OBEs (Out of body experiences):  I might have an out of the ordinary perspective on this, but OBEs  and false awakening have been linked together for me.  A false awakening is when one dreams he or she has woken up from bed.  The person goes about getting ready for the day, only to eventually realize they were not really awake.  Many experience this type of dream with no correlation to an OBE.  They don’t realize they were dreaming until after they wake up for real.  However, being lucid during a false awakening seems to connect to out of body experiences.   I think of an OBE as noticeably experiencing a separation from the physical body while still being alive and bonded with that body.  The environment in these experiences is the same as our physical surroundings or very similar to our actual physical surroundings.  I have “woken up” to use the bathroom and felt myself sit up in bed.  Then I realized I was still sleeping even though I was in my room and felt myself sit up.  I do not claim a strong conviction that I actually left my physical body on such occasions.  Perhaps I did separate.   However, I also believe the likelihood that astral projection/astral travel and OBEs are a form of dream.  I think they may be the other side of the lucid dream coin.  It is also conceivable to count remote viewing dream experiences as a type of out of body dream.
  9. Spiritual connection/message dreams:  These are dreams in which one is not necessarily lucid, but a spiritual being comes through.  These are not visitations from departed loved ones.  Rather these dreams involve a guardian angel, a spirit guide, a totem, or other member of your spirit tribe appearing for you.  They could arrive to deliver a message or to simply provide you with the energy of their company.
  10. Psychic dreams:  These are dreams in which a person accurately foresees the future, looks into the past, is contacted in order to act as a medium, or picks up on an event happening currently in the world before they receive news of it in waking life.

I think this provides a good amount of detail on the subject of dreaming.  I hope you enjoyed reading it.  Blessed be, y’all.

The Sensuality of Darkness


I find that sensuality is strong in the darkness.  The darkness I refer to is a state in which one is freed from having numerous distractions, and thus one is left with a greater awareness of oneself.  In this darkness, the senses other than sight are heightened while the eyes rest.  This can even occur in a lit room as long as one can block out distractions.

This darkness is primal.  Primal in this meaning is not bad.  It is ancient.  It is empowering.  It is intoxicating.  It is downright sensual.  Close the drapes and put on some slow music.  Suddenly one feels as sexy as Akasha in the Queen of the Damned movie.  You were a butterfly when you were out at the park in the morning hours.  Now you are a tigress.

If you ever feel like you have lost your sensual power, I suspect you might find it in the darkness.  This is at least something I feel true for females.  The dark has been associated to the feminine after all.  I think part of ourselves (especially our sensual power) may stay hidden in the darkness to avoid intimidating or offending others.  Perhaps we just don’t want the attention that carrying around that sensuality all the time would entail.  Perhaps some of us have been trained to believe that part of us should stay separated.  Whatever the case, I have found that darkness makes me feel like more of a woman as I embrace my full self.  Perhaps it could do the same for some of my lady readers.

Blessed be, y’all.


A Fool’s Psychic Journey

In the context of this blog, the Fool I mention is the one of the tarot. This fool is the naive, optimistic person starting out on a journey with pep in his or her step. This fool might not know exactly which route to take, but he or she is ready to explore the options! I have been the fool on a path of psychic study since probably around April last year.


It started as a rekindling of interest in tarot. I had a period of rather practiced hobby in tarot in the first half of my 20s. The desire to practice fled then returned shortly before my 30th birthday. I was pretty passionate about practicing for maybe a month or two. In that time I decided to join a couple of facebook groups dedicated to strengthening intuition, my intent specifically being able to sharpen my tarot skills. One group was for tarot readers in particular. Another group was a general intuitive practice group. A person in the second group told me early on that after a while I would not need my cards anymore to do readings. I don’t recall who the person was, but that claim made a ripple that created a change for me. I don’t believe I had even considered that at the time. I didn’t think of myself as psychic. I just tried to use my faith and gut instinct when doing tarot readings.

I didn’t keep up with the tarot for long after that. Reading without cards became a more intriguing adventure. Although I have not been consistent in practicing my intuitive skills, I did dive in and give it a try. My first reading in the practice group connected. It was exhilarating. I was inspired to keep trying. Sometimes I seemed to completely miss the mark (which certainly serves to keep the ego in check). Sometimes my readings went sort of half and half on accuracy. Other times I have done quite well. I don’t consider my abilities strong enough to outright consider myself a psychic or medium. However, I suppose I can now say “I’m a little bit psychic.” I feel that my connection to the spirit world is gradually growing stronger. My dreams are more and more seeming to connect me to a world (or worlds) that go beyond the chaotic dumping of subconsciousness. I know that although my journey is special to me, there are many other people out there on similar journeys. I have some lessons for those starting a path of psychic discovery. I have picked these lessons up along the way, and I am still working with them.

  1. The spirit world uses the human imagination as a field of communication. It can be quite difficult at times to distinguish between one’s own imaginative creations and psychic information coming through the imagination. Practice readings are likely to be hit or miss because of this. It is probably going to take a good bit of time and practice to become adept in sorting the psychic info out of the imagination. This has been my biggest struggle in strengthening my intuitive/psychic ability.
  2. You can really seem to be getting a spirit strong when doing a mediumship reading. You feel happy and fairly confident, then are greatly humbled when not a thing clicks with the sitter. I have been told essentially that sometimes a spirit is so eager to talk that they come in instead of the intended spirit. You can’t just look at a picture and decide “I will practice on this” then assume on the info is coming from that person’s spirit. You have to make it very clear when you open the channel that you are only interested in connecting with the spirit of the person you intend to connect with. Otherwise, somebody’s grandmother’s best friend that died when you were two years old might show up instead of their grandmother. Then the information is just likely to cause confusion or make you seem silly.
  3. Sometimes symbolism is used instead of a straight forward message. Your guide might show you a teddy bear to represent childhood instead of showing a little boy. Interpretation is personal and can be difficult and take time to figure out.
  4. This should go without saying, but I will state it just to be on the safe side. Protect yourself! Don’t just open up to psychic communication with shields down. You raise them shields up real good! Ask your guardian angel, journey animal, and/or other spirit guardians from your spirit tribe to protect you. You don’t want any low-vibrational energies toying with or attaching to you. Additionally, a lack of shielding can cause you to feel drained after a reading. This doesn’t necessarily indicate any bad energies messing with you, but being connected to spirit can drain one’s energy if proper boundaries are not in place to prevent too much of your personal energy from being used to connect. Many will say that grounding should be paired with shielding practices. I don’t know how well I actually ground, but I do have a spray bottle of snow water for cleansing after readings if I feel it is necessary.
  5. Get lucid. Lucid dreaming can create a wonderful field for interaction with your spirit tribe. Some adventures may turn out to be accidental astral projections or OBE’s, and some might turn into intentional astral journeys. As you would do with psychic readings, it is a good idea to set up protection/shielding before sleep too. I’ve had some unpleasant dreams (that were not always lucid, at least didn’t start that way) which seemed like accidental slips into an astral layer with some hateful energies. It is best to try avoiding such encounters.
  6. It’s okay to use tools to help along your intuition. Rome was not built in a day. Even though I don’t use my tarot often anymore, I do occasionally pick up a deck. Some initiatives simply love working with a tarot deck or pendulum even if they are already super capable psychics. There’s nothing wrong with that. You do what suits you.
  7. Psychic ability can have different forms for different people. You may have a friend friend who has strong clairvoyance while you have strong clairaudiance. Or you might know somebody with a low skill level with many psychic forms of ability while you have just the one strong form of ability. One isn’t better than the other, just different. Try not to be jealous or intimidated. You might develop new or stronger ability over time. It is commonly thought in the psychic community that abilities can be learned and strengthened. Perhaps just consider it a blessing that you are more naturally gifted in some areas.

That’s all the wisdom I have to share for now. I hope it helps somebody. Blessed be, y’all.

Spirit Introduction

I woke up from a typical dream in which I had been holding a cat laying limp over my arm. When I woke up I saw a pillow on top of my arm and realized that is why the cat in my dream was laying that way. I fell back asleep within a few seconds (so fast I wonder if I had a false awakening). Instantly I was peacefully walking along a road that is on my way home. I was walking with a beautiful happy spirit woman who introduced herself to me by name. I asked if she was one of my guides or a general spirit guide (helps multiple people instead of being just assigned to me). She started telling me her other roles but I could not understand what she was saying (as if I was not hearing well or she was speaking another language). Then I woke up shortly before receiving a text that would have woken me up. I feel like this was a happy experience with the spirit world.

It’s Okay Until There Are Results

There’s something funny about the nature of many human beings:  they are fine with the belief in Spirit until there is evidence.  That’s when they get scared.  In this mindset:

  • It’s okay, even good, to believe in God.  However, their minds suspect an evil source  or fraud if a miracle happens.
  • It’s often encouraged to talk to God, but your “crazy” if you notice him reply.
  • You can think you are psychic, and some people will just think you are delusional or silly, but accept that aspect of you as a quirky personality trait of an eccentric.  If you share any proof you have psychic ability, they get very uncomfortable or scared.
  • You can “Believe what you want, as long as you don’t hurt anybody”, but they get worried/scared if you don’t sensor what you believe/have experienced.

For the “weirdos” like myself, these reactions are baffling.  It could make us laugh or cry.  Maybe both.  Some of us probably get angry about it.  Whatever the emotion is that flows, there is likely contemplation.


I suppose these startled skeptics and non-believing “believers” are just experiencing different perspectives.  They are coming from a place in which it can be comforting to believe in more, but knowing more is frightening.  It is frightful for them the really experience and process information that was not received from a tangible, worldly source.  Many have been taught to exalt Divine in such a manner that they believe we are too far away from Divine to “hear” Source reply.  In some cases, people might even become upset by evidence because they are jealous.  “Why would Divine communicate with him and not me?  What makes him think he is so special?!” or “It isn’t right that she witnessed a miracle and I didn’t.  That doesn’t make sense, so she must be lying!”  In no way am I belittling people who come from such a perspective.  I’m just trying to understand them.  Us “weirdos” are not better, we just walk with a thinner veil in front of our eyes.  Perhaps the veil is thicker for others because they are meant to fully focus (or at least primarily focus) on things of the physical realm.  Perhaps they are troubled by leaks through the veil because the other side is too distracting for them.  It’s too vast.  It’s too complicated.  It’s too mysterious.  It’s “not logical”.

Whatever the reason, chances are many thinly-veiled viewers will be walking alongside those with thick veils.  We will be holding hands and trekking paths together.  Us weirdos will try to work with what they can’t perceive, and they will remind us that focus in the physical world is important too.  Bothering each other from time to time just part of the adventure  :-p

With all that said, I suggest to my fellow weirdos that it might be better to keep some knowledge and experiences to ourselves (personally or with other weirdos).  As much as we don’t want to keep things from loved ones, we probably should try to avoid freaking them out too often.  I suspect the reason there are keepers of hidden knowledge is because only some are ready for that knowledge.  It’s a safety precaution instead of a dubious conspiracy.  Additionally, we must use our judgement to keep us from trusting details with people who might in turn become abusers.  A friend or family member could seem like an ally only to turn into a monster trying to destroy you or at the very least insisting you suppress your perceptive abilities/connection to Spirit.

Blessed be, y’all.

The Flaws of Spells for Sale


I would like to start this by saying that this is just my personal perspective.  I’m not a know-it-all witchy guru.  This is just practical witchy thinking in my opinion.  It just doesn’t make good sense to pay a witch for spellwork.

For example.  You might see an ad stating that a witch will perform a love spell for you for $34.99.  You have had lousy luck in the romance department so you are considering this service.  Here is why you should think twice.

  1. The energy in spellwork is enhanced by emotional power.  Strong emotions can produce stronger energy for your spellwork.  Unless a witch is insanely empathic and your shields are way down, he or she is probably not going to be able to emotionally convey your longing for love with the strength that you would personally be able to do so.
  2. The witch you are considering giving your money to for spellwork probably doesn’t know what you want or need in a partner as well as you do.  The specifics of how a spell should work should not be ignored.  A vague guideline may deliver results you did not bargain for.  Perhaps you end up falling in love with a man who seems nice at first but is actually a narcissist.  Sure you get your wish of being in love, problem is you and your significant other are in love with the same person; him.
  3. You might not approve of the source of the witch’s magick or his/her rituals.  Some witches may be transparent in how they do things, but others might not.  The best way to know what source is being tapped into is to personally tap into a source of power you are comfortable with.
  4. Sometimes what we want isn’t what is best for us.  Lets say you really want one particular man to love you.  You have sent him all the signals and told him how you feel.  Yet, he does not reciprocate.  You decide to have a love spell done so that he falls in love with you.  So he does.  Unfortunately, his feelings will be false.  You could shortchange him as well as yourself out of being with partners who truly resonate with each of you.
  5. How do you know a witch really did a spell for you unless she or he allows you to witness the spellwork take place?  He or she could just tell you she did the work when really Netflix was being watched.
  6. If you don’t have enough faith or belief to ask for something directly by contacting the Higher Power/The Divine yourself, what makes you so sure that another person’s faith will work for you?
  7. Some spellwork is extraordinarily simple.  A basic knowledge of what you are doing and a focused intention can get you fairly far.  Magick does not have to be complicated and professionally done to be effective.  Why pay $35 for a fancy spell done by somebody else when you can just focus your intention for free?

P.S.  I have no problem with spiritual services being offered as a person’s career path.  There are differences between other spiritual services and spellwork though.  Shamans, for example, go through extensive training and have learned lessons that could take others years to learn.  Likely many lessons that were painful to learn.  If a shaman is willing to go on a journey for you and give you details of what was discovered, $35 seems pretty reasonable.  That’s all for this topic.  Blessed be, y’all.