The New Moon Blessings

I normally don’t do anything magickal for the new moon.  I felt up to it this time though.  I made a small list of blessings I would like to receive in the upcoming month (not material blessings, but things like knowledge and joy).  I folded the list up (as it was handwritten on a small bit of paper) and put it in a little velveteen pouch with various tumbled stones.  It is sitting against my lit Virgin of Guadalupe candle that I use to represent the Sacred Feminine.   Soon I will blow out the candle and place the spell pouch/dream pouch into my pillowcase to sleep upon for the upcoming month.  Blessed be, y’all.  

Spirituality; How I Deal with Anxiety

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I have never gone to a psychiatrist to be diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.  1) I can’t afford that.  2) I have no desire to be put on anxiety medication.  I know some people need the medication, but I do not.

For me anxiety is not a constant.  It comes in waves.  It particularly comes with stressors.  I know it is normal for people to experience anxiety when stressed.  It seems for me to go to a level that can fairly easily overwhelm me.  I feel the stress in my chest and stomach.  It can be debilitating.  I thankfully don’t get this way every time I am stressed.  Sometimes that anxious feeling lingers in my chest and stomach for a while though.  It is there to a lower level as I type this.  It is a reminder that I am a person who feels strongly when I see suffering.  It is a reminder that I am at least somewhat scared of change.  It is a reminder that I can be a sponge for other people’s negativity.  It is a reminder that I should not be a mother because I NEED plenty of alone time and lack the patience to deal with people who cannot be reasoned with (which is the definition of a child throwing a temper tantrum).  I am accepting of these aspects of myself.  I am a work-in-progress and probably always will be.  Coping mechanisms are needed though.  It’s human to fall apart sometimes, and it is necessary for survival to figure out how to put yourself back together. Spirituality is my medicine.

The triquetra is a sacred symbol to me.  It is THE sacred symbol for my spiritual practice.  It represents my connection to The Divine.  I keep a triquetra wall hanging over my altar that I use as a focal point.  I sat at my altar this morning.  I prayed for help (for others and myself) and I gave thanks for blessings.  Spending time at my altar talking to Father and Mother helps to soothe me.  Mantras can help to soothe me as well.  The two mantras I use are “My heart is light as a feather and full of light” and “Let go and let God.”  I also find that holding a crystal or lying down with one over my heart can help cleanse me of unwanted emotions.  I don’t always use the same crystal.  I have a collection and I choose which to use as needed.  I do have favorites, however, for cleansing myself of anxiety and rejuvenating me emotionally.  Green calcite helps to wipe away the freaked-out anxiety.  My opal egg somehow helps me feel happier.  Rose quartz is like an energy hug that helps me when someone has/is unloading on me.  The kind of hug that suggests “They don’t mean to yell at you.  Stay strong and loving.”  I realize I have talked about crystals for anxiety before, but perhaps a newbie to my blog is drown to this post for help.  Hopefully all of this is helpful for somebody.

The world, especially the country I’m in, has so many people who don’t use spirituality for comfort because they don’t believe or they are angry at religion or the Powers that Be.  I can’t convince someone to believe in God or Goddess.  That is apart of their very personal journey whether they come to believe or not.  However, I suggest to not let an aversion to religion keep you from praying or working on your soul.  Spirituality can exist outside of the confines of religion.  Also, it is important to not stay angry when things don’t go as you plan or pray for.  We can’t control everything.  Other people have free will and sometimes there are freak accidents.  Sometimes we won’t understand why something that bothers us continues.  It helps emotional well-being to accept that we can’t control everything and won’t understand everything.  It helps to keep faith that God will help us to fix the problems we find ourselves in, and to remind ourselves that sometimes things will take longer to fix than we wish for.  Being grateful for blessings helps to keep one afloat as well.  If you find yourself wanting to let spirituality help you, I whole-heartedly recommend creating a designated sacred space (like an altar), or at least wearing a piece of jewelry that reminds you of your spiritual path when you feel yourself sinking.  For those who truly need medication to correct imbalances, incorporating spirituality can simply be another aspect of self-care that works holistically to keep you well.  I wish you to love yourselves and be kind to others.  Blessed be, y’all.

As a note;  I found the remnants of that anxious feeling in my chest and stomach gone after I typed this all out.  This just goes to show the power of expression and trying to ignite light for others.  

Head Witch In Charge

I admire the confidence of the “head witch in charge” type of woman.  I am a beta female.  I shy away from conflict as much as I can.  It seems that being an alpha male or female can make a person callous to the feelings of others.  It is a truly awesome person who can take charge without trampling others.

There are those in the witchy community who believe you must be the “head witch in charge” type of person to truly be a witch.  They believe that a witch always fights to be in control of her/his life and will do whatever it takes to get what is desired.  To these people, I may not deserve to identify as a witch.  I could almost envy a woman who doesn’t take any crap and charges full speed ahead.  If she gets what she wants, she will get it faster than I would.  However, there can be more safety in walking softly.  I might take longer to get to a destination, but I am more likely to get there without enemies.  I hope my journey molds me into a woman who can bravely take the reigns in a manner that doesn’t tread too harshly.   

Good Vibes

I  am requesting prayer/positive energy.  I am not going into details, but the Divine knows what it is for.  The household could really use some extra good energy.   Thank you and blessed be.  

Courses

I have enrolled to audit 8 Coursera courses.  None of the courses focus on subjects I discuss in this blog.  I wonder if I can focus on game theory or brand management while exercising.  I guess I will find out!   

Sometimes They Have to Scream

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A lesson I have gradually been learning is that sometimes a person just has to scream.  I’m sure basically everybody has been on the receiving end of a screaming session (or at least a raised voice) many times.  There are times in which you might simply piss someone off and that is why they yell at you.  However, there are times when people yell at you but are not yelling about you.  If you are sensitive like I am, it is so easy to take it to heart when someone is being angry toward you.  What I have realized is that sometimes people become so full of sadness, frustration, and rage that they simply have to scream to let it out.  Who has not been screamed at because they happened to be the person in the room right after the last straw was placed on the camel’s back?  I find it is also common that people on the receiving end of outbursts are those who are viewed as non-threatening.  If your mom has had a totally crappy day at work and comes home and starts yelling when you have done nothing wrong, don’t internalize the blame.  Do whatever you need to do to diffuse the situation (which may likely be to do whatever she asks and give her space).

Let me make it clear that there is a difference between abuse and letting someone freak out a little from time to time.  Don’t let someone hit you.  Don’t let someone belittle you.  A person doing those things to make himself/herself feel better has reached a level of sickness that requires professional help or imprisonment.

Being a non-threatening person can feel like both a blessing and a curse.  People feel safe to be themselves with you.  This means that you can share in their joys and perhaps (excluding people with social anxiety) make friends easier than others.  However, being non-threatening can leave you feeling like a doormat sometimes.  If not like a doormat, like a free therapist people come to.  It can be exhausting, especially if you are empathetic.  For me this means a serious need for alone time (or alone with fur baby time).  You have to recharge your batteries and wash off the muck people have thrown at you.  If you don’t, you might snap as well.  Blessed be, y’all.

Haunted Cemeteries

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Kingston Cemetery, now Skeleton Park in Canada

Many of us have been taught that souls who are at peace when their lives end move on to Heaven or reincarnation.  Yet, those with an interest in true ghost stories have heard numerous tales of disturbed graves causing ghostly occurrences.    This poses some questions:

  1. Can disturbing graves bring souls back from the other side?
  2. Does disturbing graves only agitate spirits who have not crossed over?
  3. Do our souls imprint on our bodies in such a way that disturbing the remains of the deceased activates paranormal activity without manifesting actual souls?

I am interested in what others who study the paranormal have to say about this.  Do you think you know the answers?