Lackadaisical: lacking enthusiasm, unmotivated, lazy.
This is a word and a feeling I am dealing with today. It is in no way foreign to me. I got enough sleep and I am not depressed. I just don’t feel like doing anything other than laze about. On one hand I want to work on art. I had the intention at the start of the year to regularly work on art. I have barely done that. Lackadaisical might be a word to describe me for much of this year. I didn’t feel like working on art. I didn’t feel like exercising. At the same time I wanted to work on art and trim down so I don’t have to buy size 18 jeans. I can see how the conflict between what I want to do and what I actually feel like doing may have me teetering toward a kind of mild sadness. I didn’t enjoy the restlessness I recently felt for a couple days, but I do like getting things accomplished. Maybe I should just allow myself to mellow today without guilt. The problem is I probably allow too much of that. *shrugs*